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Pure Obsession (Finn) – Chapter Four
Date: 10/7/2014, Categories: Reluctance, Author: SITTING, Rating: 21, Source: LushStories
nothing serious between them. I wanted to turn it into something more but then again I didn’t want to ruin whatever we already had by bringing up the idea. So I stayed in that state of uncertain limbo, halfway between joy and disappointment, constantly trying to tip the scales in the direction I wanted to go. It was taking too long though. Spring season at the LBC was coming to an end and the company was going on tour to Spain for two weeks. Alessandra wasn’t excited and she told me as much. She didn’t look forward to jetlag and cheap hotels and foreign critics. I was even less enchanted because I was afraid that she’d go and when she came back nothing would be the same. She’d realise she didn’t need me and the distance between us would extend even further and we wouldn’t have anything to talk about. I felt ridiculous for being so dependent on uncontrollable things and yet every time I was with her I found myself biting my tongue to stop myself telling her how I really felt. I didn’t just want to be her friend, her shoulder to cry on. I wanted to be more. I wanted to be an irreplaceable part of her life, someone for whom she had love as well as respect. June was coming closer and the last performance of the season was over. Rehearsals were well underway for the tour and I started unintentionally counting down the hours until her departure. I felt almost ethereal during that time. There was nothing to look forward to. I just did my job and the long summer days only provided ...