1. Pure Obsession (Finn) – Chapter Four


    Date: 10/7/2014, Categories: Reluctance, Author: SITTING, Rating: 21, Source: LushStories

    I ran the knife rapidly through the potato, cutting it into perfect, thin slices. Alessandra watched, impressed. “I can’t use chopping boards,” she said wistfully. “I only ever cut vegetables against my thumb. You know, holding them.” “Doesn’t that hurt?” I frowned. “Sometimes. But I don’t cook that often.” “Huh.I guess you don’t have time.” She shrugged. “Right.” I arranged the potatoes in a layer on top of the fried onions and poured over the eggs, seasoning it with salt and pepper. I washed my hands. Suddenly, I felt stupid for being so negative. I’d achieved a lot. My plans had come together. I was standing in her kitchen, cooking us dinner. We’d had sex. We were like a regular, dysfunctional couple. So far, everything was a success. So why did I feel like a failure? “How’d you learn to cook?” Alessandra asked. “Experimenting,” I said truthfully. “I’d make something and if it was nice, I’d remember it and make it again.” “I’m only good at desserts,” she smiled. “Rubbish at anything else. Except stir-fry’s.” “Huh.” I leaned against the counter top and looked across the room, out of the window. I could see the dark, spindly shape of the fire exit, and the glittering lights of the city beyond. “Is this awkward?” I asked suddenly. “Because if it is, tell me. And I’ll go. I don’t want you to pretend like you’re okay with having me around if you’re not. So, please just tell me.” She frowned and shook her head impulsively. “No. Why would you think that? I know I’m like the ...
    queen of mixed signals but I honestly like it better with you here. You can’t just run out after we’ve had sex. Besides, what kind of girl would want to be alone on her birthday?” “Should I make you a cake?” I asked. “I mean, what’s a birthday without a cake, right?” She bit her lip. “Nice idea, but all the eggs are in there.” She pointed at the frying pan. “Jesus. I could go get some. Where’s the nearest store?” She laughed, and shook her head. “Finn. Stop trying to please me. I’m already happy.” I sighed and sat down at the breakfast bar. “But you’re not. I feel bad, because I kind of came here with the idea that we’d hook up even though you didn’t want to. And we did and you haven’t said anything meaningful for the last half hour. You’re not happy.” She leaned across and grabbed my hand. “Okay, I’m not happy, but it’s not your fault. I like being with you. I kind of knew your intentions and I didn’t care because I wanted the same thing. The only thing I’m upset about is how weak I am. I shouldn’t have let this happen.” “Let what happen?” “You. Us. I shouldn’t have let you into my life because it’s not fair on you. I’m meant to be Daniel’s girlfriend. He needs me. I mean, he’s been working so hard to stay clean and here I am with a random guy in my flat.” I stared at her, wanting to tell her the truth about Daniel, and yet knowing I wouldn’t be able to justify how I knew. Instead, I just shrugged. “Don’t worry about what’s fair on me,” I said. “I’m a man. We don’t have real ...
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