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The messed up life of a normal guy (diary)
Date: 9/22/2015, Categories: Taboo, Author: ilkaro, Rating: 100, Source: xHamster
I know I need help and that I should consult a psychologist but I guess I am too proud… Or I’d like to think I am. In fact, I’m scared to death about the consequences of anyone finding out about my hidden lifestyle and the darkest secrets I have… Instead of consulting I will write my story as a diary that will be opened to anyone. Of course I’ll try to keep my identity a secret. This blog will be my therapy. At this point, you’re maybe wondering why I’m being so bold by putting my diary out on the internet. “Is it a true story?” “What’s the catch?” Well, to be completely honest, my jump in the unknown is due to events that took place in the last 3 weeks where I’ve reached the summit of idiocy. 2015 was the year where my life was back on track after several years of wandering. A job for life, loads of efforts to save money the last 12 months and the most important - no stupid mistakes. But toward the end of August, everything fell apart… Everything is my own fault and I do deserve it. Anyway, one thing led to another and I lost around 5.000€ in 2 weeks on football bets. This really do sums up my whole life. Here you go, you have the 2 reasons why I start this blog. I have to get rid of those nasty habits once and for all. I already started by self-excluding myself from all the betting websites possible, first step achieved. So here I am, where do I start? I am 30, shy guy when sober, a civil servant, got a girlfriend and about to buy a house (if I still can). Only clichés ...