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the Night Whispers Index -2
Date: 9/10/2015, Categories: First Time, Mature, Taboo, Author: stif266, Rating: 85, Source: xHamster
felt my daughter sit on the edge of the bed, her hand on my leg. "What's wrong?" "Nothing," I finally said firmly, trying not to show how scared I was of my own insanity. "Nothing, just ... just a nightmare, that's all." "A nightmare? Mom ... you were yelling..." "I know," I said, slowly calming myself, "just ... just woke from a nightmare ... I'm okay ... really." Kira stroked my thigh sympathetically. It made me flash back to my s****r's touch from so long ago. I jerked from Kira's hand and sat up on the bed. "Sorry," I said, "sorry ... I ... It was just a nightmare..." She looked hurt, and I tried to smile, probably doing little to ease her concerns. Kira replied quietly, "okay ... I just worried ... are you hungry? I made dinner..." I closed my eyes a moment, unable to clear the memory, and then I felt myself grow calm and my head cleared. The memories faded, and for a few seconds, I tried to remember what had caused me grief. It was lost as I stood slowly. Something lingered on the edge of my mind, something full of both pain and pleasure, but whatever it was receded and left me feeling lost. "Yeah ... yeah, I could eat." I moved around to where Kira stood from the bed and hugged her tight. "I love you, Kira." I felt the need to hold her and affirm that I needed to be close to my daughter a moment. "No matter what." "I know, Mom. I love you, too ... you sure you're ... ok?" I smiled, the grief and uncertainty fading with whatever the nightmare had brought into my mind. "Yeah, I'm fine. So, what's for dinner?" Kira went to bed before I did, and I spent a couple of hours staring blankly at the television after she disappeared upstairs into her room. I was still unsettled, couldn't recall what had so upset me that afternoon. I didn't like having holes in my memory, in my emotions, and whatever it had been left a remnant of powerful experiences just out of my grasp. No matter how much I thought about it, nothing was forthcoming. I finally turned off the television and the lights, and tucked myself into my bed, pulling the covers up to my neck. I settled on my back, staring at the darkness above. I know it hurts, Penelope. I'm sorry. It hurts me that you have forgotten. I was confused again, vaguely remembering hearing that voice before. I recalled it from the afternoon, and the night before. That familiar voice somewhere between my ears and my brain. "Jackie?" It hurts to remember some of it, Penelope, but there was a lot of good, too. I want you to remember that. "I don't remember," I whispered, certain my grip on sanity was growing loose and that I was talking to myself. "I don't want to remember." But you need to remember. I'm lost if you don't believe that remembering the good times is worth also remembering the bad... "The good times..." After the first night we played together. Don't you remember? At ...