1. Exploring Adam 8


    Date: 7/25/2015, Categories: Gay Male, Author: Damon9888, Rating: 5, Source: LushStories

    world, that we simply had not paid attention to the passage of time. Of course, it had to come to an end... such a fever of sex could not have been sustained much longer. In hindsight, we were both a little relieved to part even as we couldn't bear the thought of it. But we also had more complex and worrisome concerns going into that last night... what would we be to each other after we parted? I know that had gone through my head before, and had no idea what Adam was thinking. Did he plan, now, to come to the university to be with me? I wasn't sure I could live up to that. I could deal with embracing a gay lifestyle, I told myself... but Adam was so young, comparatively. Certainly, I would lose the friendship of Doug. And some would take me for a pederast, or some sort of predatory asshole. And when I was honest with myself, I also had to admit how hard it would be for me to come out... in any capacity, really. These secret desires had been just that... secret... for a long time, and I wasn't prepared to share them. There was also the fact that Adam was pretty singular for me. Every time I had fantasized before, it had solely been about cock. The person attached to it was incidental. My two internet hookups had been like that. I hadn't wanted to kiss them or really touch them anywhere else than their cocks. And it wasn't as if hot men were suddenly turning my head in the streets. So, Adam was something different. I loved his body, I wanted to feel him against me, I had no ...
    qualms about kissing him (far from it - he was an instinctive and natural kisser). But that set him apart for me from other men. What had happened to me? Was this some sort of vacation from reality? More and more, that seemed to be the case. As we approached our final night together, I started to feel somewhat on edge, and I could tell that Adam was too. For once, we seemed more inclined to go out. We'd gone out mid-afternoon on the final day, and ended up staying out for dinner and then drinks afterward (that boy never seemed to get carded). We enjoyed ourselves, and talked about all sorts of things. He hadn't said much about the university, or what he was leaning towards. If he came to my school, that would be a big thing and I didn't yet know how I would deal with it. Part of my mind was girding to take that huge step... I could see being with him, and I was ashamed of my reluctance to have it be known. But I was also very aware of how young he was... which made me a little nervous about the stigma I'd earn being with so comparatively young a man, but also guilty in another way. Adam was gay. He'd known it for years, and confirmed it for himself with me. He was about to embark on the next stage of his life. He would come out to his family and friends, and immerse himself in the gay community wherever he ended up. It felt somehow wrong that I should then monopolize him sexually, if he were to move to my town. He should be exploring, finding someone who wasn't ten years his ...
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