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Knowledge Itself is Power
Date: 12/26/2014, Categories: Gay Male, Author: Warrior_Ink, Rating: 0, Source: LushStories
happened in the last hour is based on something real... I didn't know what any of it meant yet. I would need to talk to Kieran somehow; the real one. As much as I knew that I needed to, I didn't actually want to. This is part of the reason why I'm not good at opening up about my feelings. I'm too worried about how I might be received. My hand was forced when Kieran asked me to demonstrate for the Youth Karate Class. I was Kieran's sparring partner for most of the lesson, and I was able to demonstrate some of the higher level karate techniques at Kieran's request. I don't know if Kieran is a better martial artist than I am, but he certainly is a better showman. The Aneros toy spent the night tucked away safely in my pocket. The memory of my lucid fantasy put me in a different frame of mind while dealing with Kieran. It doesn't happen to me very often, but it's always been about something very important to me when it does. I tried to control my thoughts, but the memories - albeit manufactured ones - were always at the forefront of my mind. The lesson was a success, but I lost a good bit of my self-control at the end. I hid in one of the bathroom stalls while the kids packed their things and left, but it was only a matter of time before Kieran was going to come into the restroom to change. The dojo has shower stalls with individual partitions, a lot like the kind you see at the Y. I went into one of those and desperately tried to rub one out. I made it, but it didn't help me ...