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Hesitant
Date: 9/20/2015, Categories: Straight Sex, Author: elliotlacey31, Rating: 12, Source: LushStories
still so warm as we come down. My arm curls around your waist, just below your breasts, and I can still feel your heartbeat as it gradually slows down from release, from the aftershocks that shiver through us. It's the first time we've both decided to sleep in the same bed. I don't even think about leaving. Everything feels right with you. I always sense distance with others, whether it's them or just me. Part of my problem with getting close to others is that I can be seen as cold at times. My mind is more suited to understand numbers, angles, formulas.... trusting the tangible and what can be proven. With people, it's all guesswork. Gauging and missteps. Seeing angles and shapes that may not exist in someone and being unable to let go and lose myself. It's always been different with you, though. You see a darkness in me and never entirely flee from it. You cautiously touch around the edges, step inside, and always find me in the dark. What I think makes you stay is that, somewhere inside, you see light. In the same way I see more beauty in you the closer we get, we see more reasons to stay when our hesitation falls away. Whatever happens between us, I hope we never lose sight of that, of the effortless closeness we have together. As if reading my mind, your hand squeezes mine gently as you begin to float off into sleep. I snuggle closer and squeeze back, ready to drift off, too. Before that, I want at least a few minutes more just like this with you. I want you to fall asleep knowing that I'll be here holding you, that we'll wake up still entwined this way. I can't think of a more perfect way to return to the waking world.