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Trust
Date: 7/17/2015, Categories: BDSM, Shemales, Author: klammer, Rating: 100, Source: xHamster
wanted to. Once the waitress had gone off to put in our orders, she leaned forward, looking at me searchingly. "Lee," she began, "four months ago you preferred blowing up our relationship to letting me see a part of you that you were ashamed of. Now you seem to be saying exactly the reverse, that you'll suffer anything to have a relationship. Why should you trust me now, when you didn't then?" Taking the bull by the horns, apparently. I shrugged, for an answer, but she waited. "I don't know," I said, finally. "A lot... a lot happened, after we broke up. I tried to quit..." I thought about telling her how, but remembering the reaction of my friend's girlfriend, decided that it could wait. "I got... depressed." Suicidal, in fact, but again, let's not dramatize. "I always... trusted you. I think, maybe, I just didn't trust me." That wasn't really right, either. I just didn't *like* me. Well, let it pass. She considered that, nodding. "I think you're right. I think you still haven't admitted some things to yourself that you're afraid of." I flinched. "But it was probably for the best. Four months ago, I couldn't have given you what you want. What you need, maybe. I did a lot of reading." She shook her head, and laughed dryly. "A *lot* of reading, and not just your stories. I was trying to find a reason to be as disgusted with you as you are." She looked straight at me. "I couldn't. I kept on loving ...