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Of mice, men and submission (1)
Date: 6/13/2015, Categories: BDSM, Author: Chasingshadows, Rating: 9, Source: LushStories
almost any guy. I can’t have myself. I can’t stand myself. They released me. I knew I hadn’t won, that I wouldn’t get away. “You may go take your shower. Wash your hair. You’ll find everything in there”; and he nodded towards the shower. Freckles held on to my hands just a second longer. As he let them go, he said, “You’re incredible beautiful. There is no reason to hate yourself so much.” The fact that he seemed to understand so well what was going on the inside of me made me even angrier. I stepped into the shower. There were shower gel, shampoo, hair conditioner; all of an expensive brand. The whole place smelled of money. I was used to the smell of it, but not to having any. Where the hell was I? What would happen next? I would hang in there and not give in. This was like a competition. I had always liked sex, but it had often disappointed me. A part from the time with Tom. I had ended up comparing it to sports. Enduring, hanging in, pushing further. And then winning. As long as I could keep the right distance and master my mind, I would be able to do it, whatever 'it' turned out to be. And then go back home, put my sweater on, hide under a blanket; and forget. As usual. But this was not as usual. Where was I? What the fuck was this about? Why did it turn me on so much? The warm water helped me release some of my tension. I felt sore and tired. I washed my body, my hair. Was I being prepared – but for what? Why me? Why go through all the hassle? I couldn’t make head and ...