1. The long road to black (Part 1)


    Date: 3/20/2015, Categories: BDSM, Interracial Sex, Shemales, Author: sissyboiforbully, Rating: 75, Source: xHamster

    me. What began the downfall of the relationship is a few months of weak sex and my returning obsession with porn. Also, my inability to face my deepest and darkest desires. I began to watch porn again on a consistent basis. I found myself revisiting the sissy hypnos, the cuckold porn, and the interracial domination themes. While I was getting my rocks off with porn that demeaned and degraded me, it was getting harder and harder to please her in any real way. Interestingly enough, I never thought I could admit the submissive fantasies because of the homoerotic nature of them. But I do think that she would have been okay with them, if I had the courage to admit them because she was essentially dominating me anyways. Also, I had admitted to her that I had some gay sex before (although I didn't mention the fact that I was the bottom wearing panties!!!) She basically already dominated my life. Only once did I have the courage to ask for dominant treatment and it was one of the most satisfying experiences of my life. It was after a night of partying where we had all ended up at my house. We were listening to music, joking, and dancing. Chris, an athletic and good looking black guy began to dance with her. For some reason, this act made all of those submissive thoughts and tendencies swim into my brain. She looked to be enjoying herself and even though the dancing was more joking than sexy, I began to feel a mix of shame that I didn't do anything (although it seemed innocent ...
    enough), fear that I would lose her, and arousal of all those cuckold and interracial fantasies swimming back. My ex-girlfriend's friend watched the dancing for a while and then looked me directly in the eyes as if saying "what are you going to do about this?" I felt my throat catch. It wasn't dirty enough to make a scene and her enjoyment of it really made it hard to stop. She was laughing and twirling with him. Her friend just kept staring at me with a self-satisfied look. I felt this total embarrassment and submission but didn't want to make a scene. I just looked at the ground, the shy submissive side taking over and shuffled back to my bedroom. I could feel her eyes on me and I thought to myself "why am I such a pussy?" Mixed with the shame and jealously though was an underlying arousal, after all this had been my fantasy for years. I went back and laid on the bed in defeat, allowing whatever was going to happen to happen, like a true cuckold white boy. The music kept playing and I kept hearing laughter as I laid on my bed in a state of total shame and arousal. She came to bed with me after about a half hour giggling and snuggled up to me. I stayed silent with a mixture of terror, shame, and total arousal. It turns out that nothing happened but the way that I meekly submitted to Chris's pre-eminence over my girlfriend was a turning point. The illusion of being an alpha male was destroyed. I could not sl**p that well that night, imagining over and over the dancing, laughing, and ...
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